full circle

. . .from an upward battle of struggles and emotions to a journey of healing, growth, and laughter. . .



Today is my youngest nephew’s third birthday. Today is also the ninth “anniversary” of when T and I met. How cruel for the OBGYN to schedule a c-section on a day that I had been trying to put behind me and forget. {Ironically, we met on the same night his own nephew was born.}

Don’t get me wrong—I’m not pining away. But April 7 is always bittersweet. It’s the one day I can guarantee all the memories will flood back. The relationship was the best and the worst one ever in my life. And it’s the best part that makes me so sad that it ended.

I ran into him at my work conference last year. It was the first time I had seen him since The Break Up six years prior. It did not go well. I ran to the bathroom and cried. I came out and tried to avoid him, but he sought me out. We had a brief conversation catching up, but we were both working, so that ended quickly. Hopeful, I contacted him the next day to see if he wanted to catch up properly over coffee. It took a couple of attempts before he sent me two very hurtful letters: “No.” I cried all day at work… for so many reasons. Love really does suck.

For years, I had hoped one day when he was emotionally well, and I was emotionally well, we would run into each other and get back together. But you know what’s funny? Even if that did happen, I can never get back together with him because now I’m vegan. And that trumps love.

Author: elle superstar

I had four cats - now I have six but still no one to talk to, LOL. So, I write this blog to entertain me, myself, and I... and perhaps you.

2 thoughts on “bittersweet

  1. Your post is lovely. I checked out your blog on recommendation from Paul on The Captain’s Speech. FYI, I don’t participate in these award nominations often, either, but I really like the blogger who nominated me (Annie Emmy Evans), and if I only had one blog I could read a day Paul’s would be tied for first (shhhhhh…….don’t tell him it’s a tie). I trust his judgement and he’s right, your blog is one I will read and keep reading. ps I don’t know why my hyperlinks didn’t work on this comment, but i hope that your readers look for Paul and Annie Emmy Evans’ posts. They can by going to mine! 2 birds with one stone 🙂

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